its a monday!

its a monday.
and its nearing to midDay
i hvnt gotten any work out of the way
and its almost the month of may

ive lost my crayon
hvnt gotten any work done
im about to have an ache head
jst waiting to go speed ahead.

bfast was yummy,
but its only gotten me more sleepy
gotten me more lazy
and slightly alot crazy


its a monday
and i wish it was a sunday
maybe a choc Sunday
could jst make my monday!
( " ,)

to those who i have left behind...

this is dedicated to those who HAVE been in my life.

for some reason,
time or a treason
i had to leave them behind,

be it a lover,
a bestFrend,

be it official,
thru an email
a phone call
or jst avoidance

this is not to call you back in my life,
for i have no more tears nor space to let you in

in many ways than once,
at one or many junctures,
you have hurt me
and the Almighty knws
someday
or maybe the day has finally come
that i will forgive you
and forget you

or maybe if i was the one,
who made promises and broken them,
who wasnt there when needed the most,

then i apologize
but i dont intend to make ends well,
or catch up on things

as i take all with wastedHearts
tht we were never meant for starts

in time,
i will come across you
a picture, a memory or worst to meet each other

i will be cold,
and i will not hold

i might also be kind
but pls keep in mind
for i have made up my mind

i've already left you behind

:(

two nites in a row

bb ash was down with a fever and flu and since he didn't want anyone else,
i attended to him two nites in a row..

two nites in a row i was worried,
two nites in a row he only wanted to sleep in this position,

two nites in a row i checked his fever,
gave him hs meds on time,
gave him food, toys to play,
give in to his tantrum


two nites in a row i had to time myself to :
bath,
eat,
pee,
do no.2
( hahaha)

two nites in a row,
i watched elmo/pocoyo/mickeyMouse clubHouse/diveOliDive/Thomas till i memorized all the theme songs

and nw that he is well and screaming/hitting/dancing/bitting hs way to growingUp
(alhamdulilah!!)

i actually missed those two nites in a row...and tht im happy i experienced all the above and the hikmah of him being sick, is tht i get to spend more time with him..

i like to believe that the best a mother can do is to share her childs happyness with eveyOne and bare his sickness to herself.. ( " ,)


(the zombieLook i had after tht is something i want to forget forever pls..haha)

countdown to detach-ing in 3.....2....1......

detachment has its anxiety ..

and i thought iLL b experiencing it the day he decides to move out
(like another 20..eerr...30 years lagi? hahaha)

im being selfish if i say the detachment is my anxiety..
for i know at some point every bird must learn to flap its wings...

this time im not blaming on the hormones, period nak dtng, dramaLalala

i guess its just natural to feel abit restless (and sad)
to face the detachment process...of this mother bird
(okla mother koala sounds more appropriate pls) letting go its little one...

so im taking a deep breath...
and embracing (and of course syukur alhamdulilah) on the detachment process that is happening...

: he sleeps longer in his own BedSofa compared to when snuggledUp with us

: he wants to spoonFeed by himself witout the bib


: no more pangkung-ing pls, he'd rather sit on his own


: he starts a conversation with whomever is near him


: walking and letting go of my hand...(sob sob sob)

:learning to drive da (bhahahahahahhaha!!! saje je drama ni..( " ,)

new resolution....... in April? apakah??!

i get it that when the new year comes,
eOne talks about resolutions..(including myself)

i guess its normal,
for every start of a year,
we start by planning/resolu-ting/listing activities tht we plan to do to better our self for the year
(yada yada yada)

i never really thought much about it
(besides relisting at wht was there the year before)
and of course forgetting about it till the end of year..hahahahah

but yesterday, i had a resolution..no,
not a premonition...
a resolution
and get this, im actually working on it

to walk to alamanda, putrajaya during lunchtime.

for the benefit of those not living in Malaysia
(mem mem di singapura and frends in indonesia, this is for u..hehehe)
alamanda is a shopping Mall in the middle of Putrajaya which is similar to KLCC
(minus the twin towers and highEnd shops of course ..hehehe)

for the benefit of those not in my cycle of life
( " ,)
my day starts by driving, buying bfast by driving, go to lunchdates wit my gals by driving, then back home of course, by driving.. so in other words, i only burn calories by singing in the car..bole?!

anyways,
from my office,
one can actually see parts of the Alamanda building,
aka its blardy nearby.

but i never really got the urge/itch/kerajinan to walk there...
(refer the driving cycle as above..hahahah)

i mean lets be realistic,
walking under the hot sun of malaysia,
in heels,
jst for lunch?
matSalleh je would seem to want to do that..( " , )..

eTime i get back from overseas where somehow walking seems to be normal,
i tend to ask myself whyla i tak serajin...

so as i was saying, the resolution..i decided..

i will do powerWalks to alamanda everytime possible during lunch time

lets analyze this resolution:

will do : the power risen from the inner self to consider doing (am i making sense..haha)

powerwalk : fastwalking, almost close to slowRunning to the extend sweat comes out/burn the fats (slow chitChatting brisk walk to be avoided..haha)

everytime possible : this is for those who will then critisize me if (like all my other resolutions) i tend no to do (that often)..hahaha

lunchTime : im actually going to give up sleeping during lunch...wow

and so yesterday, with my heels, handbag .. i started walking.

check out the cars that linedUp just to head to the same place im heading..tsk tsk tsk..i used to be one of them..hahaha (and check out the bayang bayang of the tree..panas siod!)


and here's wht ive noticed :

(i) the heat does hit instantly, but so does the wind..its almost like walking in and around Perth..and there some great green shades

just about to arrive the entrance of alamanda...i feel overdress la, apsal xda orng bawak hbag?

(ii) Alot of people are actually walking to Alamanda..aiyooo

(iii) none are actually carrying hbegs, mostly bawak wallets and purses...hehehe

(iv)scholl heals are really good! hehehehhee

(v) im being all drama about walking, its actually greatFun

(vi) but above all, def need umbrella and sensible shoes

maybe ILL invite some offmates to join in?!!

happy WorldHealthDay!

aawwwhhh, sensible shoes and silver-heat-resistant umbrella, just like oldtimes
( " ,)

tribute to the familarStranger

i enjoy a simple Joke, a stupid joke..

ive heard his glamer name a few years back when i started reading gila-gila
(tetiba teringat library UUM where they actually have compiled version of this comic, siap berjilid hardcover k)

then he become my simplyKlakar morning dose every morning on my way to work. Alot would have caught me laughing out loud (sometimes sampai berair mata , tertutup mulut and all) while driving. people might call me crazy by then, i didnt care.

cause simplyKlaka dialogs tht he made, didnt need alot of thinking, didnt need alot of analyzing and questioning back..
in fact didnt anything at all
but jst to laugh

in the world of seriousness, economicTurbulance, Terrorist, bitterness, fighting, hatred, negativity...sometimes the simple pleasure of actually being humored reminds me of how life should be enjoyed..and that there is still hope to just laughOut at life


at 12.30am 2nd April 2010 (a day after aprilFool, hw ironic is tht), this familiar stranger, after a brief illness- DinBeramboi, my SimplyKlaka fix in the morning passed away.

my first reaction (from the tweet msg from azwanAli), was a simple tear.

im not sure whether its considered pathethic to cry over someOne i only know from the radio, but to me, any stranger/person or even loved ones that bcomes my reason wake me up in the morning and better still, manage to make me laugh, deserves my love and doa.

Comedians are human too, they live and they die. sometimes i tend to forget about that.

Life goes on, Tomorrow will be other headlines to linger upon
but for today,
Ya Allah, i am once again reminded of what is certain-Mati.

Al-fatihah